I came back to check how close to one year of reality I am. In just 45 days I will have made my first real milestone. I still can't believe I had time to drink before. Now that I gave up drinking, it seems like I even have less time. I am trying to figure out how I got things done before. As my brain feels like it is constantly spinning, I am looking to emulate these monkeys. That was the appeal of the bottle. I could stop the thinking and march onward. It didn't occur to me all that I could be doing. Now the battle lies in how to calm myself down. These monkeys know the secret to living on earth. Enjoy the blessings all around. I bet this Japanese monkey had a rough day at the office. Running around pulling bananas off trees and starting a food fight must have pushed him to the limits. Thank God for the hot springs.

I thank God for the gym. I have engrossed myself in building a 6-pack instead of downing one. I have traded in the wine bottle for the vitamin water bottle. And I have traded in the size 12 dress for a size 10. Not all bad. Not all perfect either. Life still has its bumps. My car was broken into last Friday night and my computer was stolen. I spent all day Saturday replacing the window and computer (uploading files and software). I blew up at my boss for over reacting to a situation, and I canceled on an obligation, teaching my son to lie. Let's see, maybe getting sober is not all its cracked up to be. While I know I say this tongue in cheek, I often wonder if I was drinking to self-medicate to mask all my deficiencies. Duh!!!!!

So I will focus on my strengths and turn those weaknesses into blessings. Yes, we are given our weaknesses to realize our interdependence on others and God. Without them, there would be no need to reach out to our fellow human beings. So my weakness, my cross has brought me closer to those needing help from my strengths and vice-a-versa. So all is not for naught. Being an alcoholic ends up being a blessing. Imagine that!

Time to hit the tub. :D