CANDY!!!!

This is the sweet of my day. I was buying candy for my kids for Valentine's Day and was pleasantly rewarded by the complete absence of guilt. As I ran into people at the grocery, I was able to look them in the eye and not be fidgety due to overwhelming guilt. I did not need to hide a bottle of wine beside the loaf of bread. I was completely at ease. So at ease, that when the guy behind me struck up a conversation about my Energy drinks and his Zinfandel, I just relaxed into the moment. I could enjoy his enthusiasm for his "Old Vines" Zin, while he told me he sold the energy drinks I was buying. I told him I used to work at a winery where Zin was their trademark. I thanked him for the tip on the Zin and went on my merry way. Five hours later, I am still plunking away at my day. I have accomplished what I wanted to get done.

During the last few years I was hardly able to make to 9:00. What time I did put into the night was not worth a hill of candy hearts. Now my cup overfloweth with them. Everyday is a reassurance that I made the right choice. Although I still second guess my decision. "Maybe I just needed a break." I know this is so not true after reading soberwomanofgod-"Relapse." Distance makes the heart grow weaker. I will keep these candy hearts around to remind me that there are blessings to living sober....


Just for grins, read another addiction: LeVar Burton's "To Quit is to Win."
You may remember LeVar from Roots, Reading Rainbow, or Star Trek. I stumbled onto his blog via Twitter. Oh, the fun of the internet. I would have totally missed out on this had I picked up that bottle of Zin.

Let's hear it for the Sweethearts!!!!!